Ok ill yell yis.its important for me to say firstly that I dont really mind if people laugh at me or not,because it works for me.
When I went into hospital on 15th Dec quite unexpectedly, all I remember when the consultant told me the extent of my problem was the sound of muffled voices.the only one word I heard clearly was surgery.
This was surreal,and certainly uncharted waters.
I was absolutely out of my mind with worry,and fear (hence the reason I hate to see people worry now )
Anyhow I spent almost 3 months in ,between Beaumont,and the mater.I got deeply into prayer and surrounded myself with certain saints whos help I usually invoke when im in trouble.I can never put into words how much this helped,only they,and I know how prayer helped to alleviate the feelings of anxiety I had.on many occasions throughout my time in hospital,I had good experiences,bad experiences,disappointments,laughs,but one of the experiences I had in particular is worth telling you
about.it actually happened on the very first day .I was so overcome with all kinds of emotions,that I asked to see the chaplin.when he came to me ,the first thing he said to me was,Paul the nurses sent for me at 5 pm ,and its now 6 pm.the reason I was late is,because I was in the church praying for you.then suddenly he turned his head ,looked straight at me,and said to me Paul I can tell you that you will be alright.it was an uncanny experience,but one I never forgot.from that moment on ,I did not feel the same fear I had felt ,and I just know that my belief,and trust in my higher power carried me through.when the surgery was all over some weeks later,I asked the surgeon was it a complete success,and with a thumps up sign he said 2 hundred per cent Paul.I just turned my face into the pillow cried my eyes out,and thanked my higher power for removing the fear,and anxiety.and that is my antidote prayer
